Day 35 of 100

Back at the beginning of April, I was calculating if it was still possible to complete the 100 days by summer. It would have been close. Now it will be late June or early July when I get to day 100. Not sure what is magical about Day 100. A day to reflect, perhaps.

That bridge drawing is sitting on my easel still unpainted. Why do I fear it?

Today is a beautiful Sunday. I went to look at a friend's painting and I went for a walk in a park where I had never been before. Two strangers stopped to rest from walking their dog and we had a pleasant conversation. I did not feel the stress that usually comes from the questions about painting.

My friend's painting was part of an exhibit at the Unitarian Universalist Church. Another place I had never been before. I arrived after the service started so I could just look at the paintings without too many questions about why I was there. A few other people were also milling about. I overheard someone mention my church. It was a person from my church that I had met before, but did not know very well. She was there representing Sierra Club. We had a nice conversation about why we like being Methodist. Hopefully we did not offend anyone who might have overheard us.

While I was walking in the park I had some anxiety about the thought of getting out my paints. What if I can't find a good spot, what if there are bees or bugs or scary people, what if I can't create a successful painting? Luckily I realized this train of thought was silly.

So I decided that my painting would be something I do as a thank you to God for the walk on the woods. That removed my insecurity from the equation.

Day 34 of 100

Today I am having a hard time getting myself to do anything. I inked a few lines on this bridge picture. 

Day 33 of 100

Yesterday, Saturday, I went to the arboretum and walked a bit in the wildflower exhibit. Plants are just starting to come up. I ate my lunch sitting on a bench overlooking a pond. 

Day 32 of 100

I was determined to do something today. I spent much time looking at photos for inspiration. Here is the bridge over Rice Creek. It is very late. That is all I can do today. 

Day 31

Today should be day 40 or so. Is it that fear of success again? I like how this turned out. It was on my easel almost done for 10 days. Each day I did something else instead of finish it.

There are 42 days left in the school year. 42. I can do this.

I have kept up my journal. I am going to try to add one more thing to my morning routine. I plan to replace my morning Sudoku time with either painting, yoga, meditation, or walking outside. Something different each day maybe? No. Not maybe. Walking outside or yoga if the weather is bad. I love walking outside. Earlier this evening I walked to a spot next to a wetland area and just sat there for quite awhile. Anyone who noticed me may have thought something was wrong, but there was absolutely nothing wrong during that time.